its the second day of the third term.
and exams are coming at the end of this month.
could it get any worse?

but it wasn't so bad, i mean i did survive for the past 5months or so.
but, it is bad that the exam fever is coming again.
its only been a month since the intense period of exams,
and now?;
its CA1.

honestly, i'm not that wiped out.
thank godd, the teachers laid off the homeworks. or else,
i would have just died.
i can't stand picking up a pen in my own house.
at school or a friend's house maybe, but my own home,,
i plan to sleep at home!
but ohh well, what can i do?
i can't just shove the teachers back their homework can i?

jeez, i would enjoy school a wee bit more if it wasn't for 'upcoming' exams.
*please hint the inverted commas, i don't mean to cause panick to anybody. ;p
but i've got to start preparing for those stupid pieces of papers!
mann, i just can't.
i'm too lazy.
honestly, i'm still in the holiday mood.
i just can't lift my fat bum off of any chairs, or bed.
due to my laziness, its basically causing panic to me.
[ i don't wanna fail my exams! ]

you know what?
i'm done typing here.
i have soo got to try to lift my arse of this chair right now!

ohh NO.
school opens tomorow!
aaah!

but fortunately, i have finished all of my homework!
just that some papers, some questions were just blank.
its not that i didn't want to do, well its partly i didn't want to do, but i just didn't know the answers!
just hope the teachers lay off it.

can't believe i have to go back to school tomorow.
i have to go through the grueling path to school.
i wish i had a teleporter or i could fly, so i could just zoom through and not be worried about anything.
you should know, i'm insecure.
i don't know, i just don't like people looking at me and think, "she's a geek, she looks like a man!"
i know i am those things, i just don't like to be reminded of it.

its okayy-
i just have to walk and keep on walking 'till i get to school.
mann, i reallyyy- wish that i didn't have to walk there, or even go there.
i would walk with a buddy, but it seems so troublesome. not that i don't want to.
its just that, my prepaid usually goes to zero when i walk with anybuddy.
if only i could bump into someone i know everyday.
then, my prepaid will be safe!
i just don't like to be judged whenever walk to school where i'm surrounded by people who looks better than me.
mann, am i pathetic.

you know what?
i'm just gonna walk.
that's it.
and while i walk, i'll recite movies in my head. [ouh, its possible.]
hmm, problem solved. probably.

just hope teachers would relax abit on the amount of homework.
or, they would give us another month of holidays. ;p
now that, would never be possible.

argh,
just gonna get past the 'getting there' part.
well, gotta just get ready.
may be i'll just think about this phrase. maybe it will help. :D

well, unfirtunately i'm back here.
typing away about my boring life which by the way, no one's gonna take a care about.

but, i'm bored.
so, what the heyy- i'll just tell you what happened even though i don't think there's any "you's" out there, wasting your time reading this.

i just opened the laptop which is not minee, and decided to blog.
i know my life is pathetic, but my father's watching soccer. -.-'
not really a big fan.
jeez, i am a loser.

let me tell you why;
i'm not smart, compared to my totally brainy classmates.
i'm not pretty, compared to the other girls in the school.
i'm not that sporty, compared to other 'sporty' people.
( i really suck at sports.)
i'm not so outgoing like those who can just walk up to a stranger and just make friends.

i know nobody's perfect,
but, i wish at leasat i had something, something special.
i pity anybody who's reading this.
its just someone sulking away on what she doesen't have.

well, what can i do?
i could just jump down from a building, but-
odds are, i wouldn't do it.
i'm a coward really.
heh, guess i'll just have to walk through with, well, what else but;
nothing.

you know what?
i think i shall relieve the people who are reading this even though i doubt there are any,
by ending this post.
its a stupid post. it goes along with my stupidity.
smile? here, :D
funyy- hahah. -.-'
you kow what? don't let me spoil your fun. [my fun actually ;p]
let watch a video! ;D

today's pretty much the same as any other day.
what a 'shock' right?
i'm still sulking, over;
the last few days before school re-open!

waaaahahahahahahaaaaaaaah!
as you can see, i'm literally crying.
buut, there were some things that cheered me up.
wanna laugh your pants off?
warning: prepare to change your pants. ;p
but, if you don't get their jokes, and don't think its funny,
i think its just your loss.





these people are probably the only ones that can make me laugh,
hysterically.
i love them.
they're old, but yeah, they make me smile.
they're just the right thing to make me cheer up instead of sulking on the bed about school.
mann, i really really really don't want to go back.
i don't want to see those people's face.
*as in homework, don't get the wrong idea.

i wanna get back to my daily routine,
which is;
watching videos with my arse on this chair. its great really. ;p

today-
well its as much as any other day.
woke up, with the sounds of nagging from my mother on how i always wake up late.
is 10.00am late?
but ohh well, i got up.
she told me there were gonna be visitors soon and that was what really got me up.

they didn't come until 2pm.
my mother lied.
and there she went, saying on how bad lying was. :p

they actually came to study from my mother.
they seemed nice. well, cause they were with my mother while i rarely do.
before they came, i was watching kung fu panda, enjoying myself.
i thought they weren't coming.
aaaand, they came. what a shock it was.

the little boy was so cute, but the girl seemed like a person that i would stay away from.
i know, i know, i critic people. i know its bad.
but i can't help it.

later on, i had to follow my mother to sunplaza,
along with my new "friends". *hint the inverted commas.
came back home, and here i am,
my butt on this chair with my face straight to the screen.
what can i say? i'm bum. ;D

ohh, NO!
ohh, crapp.
ohh, jeez.
ohh, mann.

i only have 4 days left 'till school re-opens!
i feel so-
well, sad really.
*sigh.
i don't miss school miss school at all. i do not want to go back!
i want extended school holidays! oh please, please.

i think i'll go overseas and catch a flu, but not H1N1. ;p
at leaest a fever or a cough so that they would send me back home.
i just do not want to go back there,
to that place where i would have to sit down and listen to an adult talking about things that i don't like and don't really understand.
the worst part is, i have to listen like my life depended on it.
my results, my life; what's the difference?

ohh wait, that's not really the worst part.
the totally worst part is; there's homework!
this thing called homework is always, and i mean always, everywhere!
it doesen't give us a break.

right now, i still have IH.
i'm starting to hate IH, i didn't really.
its just that now, i don't understand a single thing on the project!
grr-

i feel like running away or tranferring school just so,
i don't have to do this homework!
:[

today was the bomb!
it was so fun. well, to me.
i went out with Nikki and Jia En.
Nikki's sooo much fun! i never expected that honestly. ;p

we went to the library, well, to study of course!
i got my english totally done, maths- just left out 'some' questions and IH almost done.
i'm so proud of myself. [complimeting myself, ;p just ignore it.]
the chinese pupils then had to find books for their book review.
it was abit hilarious to me.
Nikki needed an easy book.
her mothertongue's as bad as mine, but she still got top 4! :(
Jia en kept bullying her. ;p
they got their books still.

i got hungry from doing the gazillion and one homeworks so,
we went to burger king.
Nikki didn't like burger king, she didn't even touch the food!
since Nikki didn't like things both Jiaen and i also started listing things of what we liked and didn't.
Ohh, there were wars, about food!
how crazy is that? not so really. ;p

after that, we took a walk around the night market, also known as 'pasar malam'.
hahah. i know its not amusing.
found interesting things, but it was warm and boring so we left the place.

went back to the library,
read, read, read, read, did homework, did homework, did homework.
suddenly, Jiaen thought of going to timezone.
we did, and it was so fun!
i loved it.

Jiaen and Nikki battled it out on the air hockey table and Nikki prevailed as the winner!
hahahs, ;]
then, i and Nikki battled it out on guitar hero!
she had experience so she won. :(
then, I battled it out on the air hockey table with Nikki.
don't really know who won. ;p
then went back to guitar hero. i just couldn't get enough of it.
Jiaen was supposed to do it but she couldn't do it so gave it to me.
and before i knew it, i was playing guitar hero to 'Reptilia'.
i really reall really really love that song. :D
and i won! woohooo!

i was then suddenly hooked on guitar hero.
i want to buy the gaaaaaaaaaaaame! aaaahhh!
but it costs like $100+. that's such a shame. ;[
i don't even have a play station 2!
i'm literally crying my eyes out.
hope i can get a scholarship to buy it. i'm too addicted.
[even though i only played two games. ;p]

we were then out of money and went home.
Jiaen then chased Nikki for a short distance. Pretty hilarious. :D

happy birthday kak, you fart.
i hate you.
*hint the sarcasm if you will.

you're now 19, when are you gonna give an allowance? ;]
today, we're gonna buy a bigg pizza just for you.
well, not only for you, but for those who are hungry in this house.

i'm gonna dedicate this video to you.
its hilarious. :D

jeez, i've still got a billion and one homeowork.
let's see, i've done english, some of malay, some maths, science,
you think that's alot?
well, notice the phrase 'some of' which basically means;
undone.

i've done it! but i haven't finished it.
a pity isn't it?
i need to finish it, i've got precisely a week and a day left!
it seems like a perfectly enough amount of time, but i plan on enjoying my last few days!
why is there such a thing as homework?
okaay, these teachers can give homework, but not to the amount where they can suffocate the students!
i know i'm exaggerating, but it feels so real.

i wish i enjoyed all these subjects, but its such a shame that i only love english and science.
maths and malay, my eyes would water and i would be pulling my hair out,
literally .
can't these pile of worksheets just disappear?
is that so hard? :[
i don't think the teachers would even want to mark it, let alone go through it.

let me say these magic words and just PRAY that it will all go away,
waaaay away,
but, ohh, its still there, rotting on the top of my study table and still left undone.
jeez.
i wish i was really hardworking to have finished all of my homework in the first week.
but ohh well, i'm not.
its such a shame, a pity really.

mann, i feel revived.
even though i've only went out twice, in a row.
i hope i don't have to go out three time in a row.
i know, i know, you people think that i'm pretty much a bum.
and i am.
and i like it. :D

yesterday, had fun with Jia En and Shahirah, they're fun people.
but absolutely not the people you can finish homework with.
they didn't seem to have the mood going on.
neither did i.
but, to avoid all nagging from my father, i just had to do it.
plus, i wanted to totally enjoy the last week of my ohh so short holiday.
i'm totally exaggerating. ;]

Shahirah later then left with her friends.
Jia En then pulled me to cinema to watch 'Ghosts Of Girlfriends Past.'
but in my opinion, alot of people i know, are almost just like Connor Mead.
they stead, they break, they stead again aaaand you guessed it; they break again!
hahah!
i honestly don't get these people.
they say 'i will love you forever, mwah mwah mwah.' -.-'
but what happens?; another person comes along aaand they break, obviously.

then today, woke up.
i was supposed to go out with aisyah, but was sooo tired i felt like just fainting back on that bed,
but,,
i got up, and actually woke up.
took the bus, and waited for Aisyah for half an hour!
she does it again. ;p
at least i made her do her malay homework. x]
it was pretty much a miracle that she did.

well, i'm pretty much wiped out.

Jia en's back! Hooray! :D
Good, good. She's relieved of coming back home.

Being the freak with the bulging eyes with the ares on the computer at home.
Strangely, my parents aren't nagging at me.
A miracle isn't it?
If this can happen, then i sure pray that the teachers would come to their senses and take back their homework.
Aaagh. Its bugging me! It makes me want to pull my hair out!
It makes me freak out like this.

I just don't want to do it.
Too lazy. Well, i am a bum as i say.
I finished science, half of malay, still.
Can't find the 'energy' or want to do it. Its to hard to pick up that pen and start writing.
If i had the money or 'sweet talk' as may say, i might just ask someone to do all my homework for me.
But, i don't. *sigh.

I think i'll just do my maths homework tomorow.
If only i had my english homework, im ight just finish half of my work.
Jia en! I beg of you! Please hand me my english homework. :[

I thought the june holidays would be thrilling, exciting but, it just seems like my old routine, only longer.
Mann, i want some action even though i'm too lazy to get on my feet to get some action.
i need help.

mom, you told me things that i've heard before.
maybe one too many times.
it seems that you don't love your own family anymore.
you keep saying that you don't care, you keep saying that my own father has never loved you.
you keep saying that your own children, including me, doesen't love you.

you think that we don't love you just because we don't help you out in the kitchen?
we are kids from the 21st century!
come ooon, give us a break. your children are going to school, volunteering, national service, project meetings, study groups, library.
why can't you understand that?
we constantly say 'we love you' to you. is that not enough?
and we do help you out in the kichen, you just don't seem to appreaciate it.
as much as we would want to help you out, but we're tired, but its still your job, your duty, to feed your own family.
is that so hard? i'm not criticising you, but don't keep thinking that we don't love you.
it seems like you take our words that are filled with much care and compassion as possible, for granted.
why?

and you say that my father has never loved you or cared for you before.
then why would you marry him?
when you're gone, and he can't sleep at night its because he loves you so much and misses you, not because he's guilty!
how could you say that he doesen't care?
he works from morning 'till night, not for us, but for you.


i love you, but;
i sometimes think you really don't love us,
you took us for granted.
maybe you were better off without a family.

i love tv shows. it makes me smile evrytime.
wether they've a mistake or its what they were going for.
i love commedies.
they make me so happy that i do the dance of joy! hahahs. :D



its not only that i love, i love friends too!
even if i've watched the same episodes a million times, they still make me laugh. :D





i love these hilarious people.

i'm strange, weird, insane, nerdy, eccentric, nostalgic and a wee bit lost.
which all this leads to different.
i'm proud of it, but i'm still insecure about it.
i don't want to blend in with clones, but i don't really want to stand out from the crowd.
i want to be different but i still want to fit in.
i get that you don't get it.
even i myself don't get it. i wish i was simpler, and not some puzzle impossible to put together.

i need someone to help me to get that,
so far, it seems that no one really gets me, not even my parents.
saddening isn't it?
i wabt to be proud of myself, but i don't want people looking up and down at me and giving a strange face or an amusing smirk.
it hurts.
i'm not like some of you who doesen't really care of others think of you.
i wish i was though.

*sigh.

i'm a pathetic loser / lame-o.
what do you get? pathetic lame-o-ser. hahah. at least i've accomplsihed of amusing myself.
no point sulking,
letting others understand me when i don't even know who, what i am.

eehh, i don't think there's any point in living.
what can i say? i'm scum.
commit suicide? hah. i would if i could, but i can't.
look on the brightside? i think its on the other side of the world.

Yaaaawns-
Its exactly 11.24 right now.
Can't sleep, to bored.
I watched scofield 'kick butt'! Well, not actually 'kick butt', but you get what i mean.
Ahh, i love prison break.
Its like the best show ever! It get's you suspensed, thrilled and not confused.

I wish i could play sims 3 right now.
*sigh.
I've installed it, but something's wrong. Grr-
It boils my blood, i think my blood pressure just went up. :p
I seriously can't wait to try it out!
I think that's the reason why i can't sleep. Excitement. Pfft.

Aahh-
The blog seems brighter now doesen't it?
I like it.
The other skin seemed so dark and i'm sorta out of that phase.
There's no tagboard. My apologies.
Well, its not like anybody's gonna come by here and say something.
I know i'm not popular, that's why i've decided not to make a tagboard.
But if you need me to relink you, just tell in some other way.

Another day of the june holiday passes by.
Another day of normality.
But, there's still one friggin' thing that's stuck in my mind and bugging me 'till the end of eternity!
Its dark, its evil, its torture and its;
Homework.
I know i'm exagerating about it, but i really think its that evil.
I can't really relax 'till its done, but i still want to relax first.
I know, i'm complex.

There's like a gazillion and one worksheets and projects.
I've started on a few, but that just leaves me with a gazillion more.
I wish they would all disappear. Wouldn't that be great?
But it might just take a miracle for that to happen.
Or maybe the teachers might come to their senses and just take all these homework away.
Away, away. Far, far away.

But at least there's one thing that's about to make me happy;
And that is,,
Sims 3!- Aaaahh!
I finally succeeded in pushing my brother in getting me the game!
Seriously can't wait for it. Eek-

The june holidays are going up my blood.
My religous exams are over! *looong sigh of relief.
Its over, but i'm pretty sure i didn't get good marks. If i pass, i'm grateful.
I don't ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever wanna fail!
Now that they're all over, i get to relax abit.
Notice the word 'abit'. I'm still worrying about my homework.
There's so much that i get the feeling that my teachers want to torture us.

A week of holiday has passed, as for some of my friends, it has been a week off Cca.
Am i right?
All the days of the week, guess where i've been?;
My arse on the chair in front of the computer.
Been watching videos, occaisional auditioning and of course, sims 2.
It isn't as much fun anymore. It isn't as much anymore fun anymore because the sims 3 has come out!
Arggghh! I want it! I want it, i want it, i want it, i want it, i want it, i want it NOW!
I've begged my borther almost everyday to get me the friggin' game!
He won't budge an inch.
Grr-

Since there's no sims 3 installed in my pc, i guess i just have to stick with my less entertaining routine on the computer of watching videoas on youtube.
*sigh.

Sheesh. June holidays isn't as much fun as i thought it would be.
The only thing is that i get to lie on my heavenly bed as much as i want.

Mann, i want to get out of the house, but i don't want to take all the trouble to get ready to get out of the house.
Get it? Obviously you don't.
At least yesterday i got to get of the house in just my uniform.
Didn't have to think much of my appearance as i was going to school.
Hours away to the end of the Scientific Thinking Programme.
Was relieved and yet sad.
Relieved that the project was about to be over and sad that i couldn't use it as a reason to escape anything from home or school anymore.
Our project was on solar power.
Jeez, the judeges found it so hard just to understand how to power up the rechargeble batteries.
And you call yourself a 'professor'. Pfft.

Bored bored.
I just can't wait to get my hands on that sims 3!
Grr-
I'm gonna have to wait at least a week for it, as promised from my no so trustful brother.
At least i have my sims 2.
Isn't as fun as it used to be though.

There's alot of things my oh so boring life that isn't as what it used to be.
My parents aren't what they used to be,
Friends, or friendships aren't as what they used to be either.
*sigh.
Maybe i made that way. Maybe, or maybe it just happened.
People change.
They can change if they want, but just don't change in a friggin' irritating way.

When you're irritating, i avoid you. Just so i don't get pissed off at you.
But some of you are avoiding me.
I don't mind, but it still hurts. But ehh, no point showing it right?

This may just be the end of my post.
Nobody reads it anyway. I just like to test my typing skills. ;]