shit.
my life sucks.

ever felt so absolutely pathetic in your life that you should just end it right now?
i'm pathetic sure, pitiful even.
even if i die, i don't think anybody would care right?
i'm neither important here nor there.
i don't think i have anything to live for anymore.
yea, i'm depressed sure.
but,
do people care about me?/ or are they just faking it?
i don't know,

i know there's always a reason for something; so is there a reason that i'm here?
i doubt it somehow.
i have friends, sure; but...
do they care about me?/ or am i just laughing along with them for no reason?
i'm not accepted here, i'm not accepted there, so; where the heck am i supposed to be?
but do i really have friends?
are they really what i think they're supposed to be?

i don't know what to think!
i don't want to have anymore bad thoughts about anybody!
but i'm starting to doubt my faith in them,
are they phonies? or am i just imagining it?
i could be overreacting, but i'm not sure.
am i still with them?, or are they already against me?
do they still even care?
or they don't anymore?
or they never did,

let's imagine, i'm deadd-
my parents would be sad, maybe.
people at school wouldn't give a crap about it and go on with their lives.
it'll be like throwing a paper ball into the rubish bin.
there's no worth in it and you could forget about it in a second.
so, i'm just rubbish.
and nobody would even care.

i'm overreacting, i know.
but, i want to know what's going on, i need to know what's going on.
does she care? does she not?
all these questions, all that's in my mind; will be possibly left unanswered.

care if i die?-
sigh~ -.-'