For the post before, i didn't really mean it. (eeek!-)
I was just really really really really friggin' angry. Had to pour it out before it exploded in me.

You know what? I've been getting the feeling lately that everyone seems to hate me.
Don't know why, but was there something wrong that i did unconsciously?
Or is there something wrong with me? Am just annoying like a blabbermouth?
A machine gun maybe?
Maybe its just me or maybe i'm right;
Everyone does hate me.

I look at people, i feel like they're making fun of me inside their minds.
I feel like a so called "mind reader" and i can hear their insulting comments in their minds.
Buuuuut; maybe i'm just overreacting about myself.
Is it that i'm insecure? I'm puzzled. Seriously.
I sometimes think that i'm just not good enough for these 'strangers' around me.

Its like; when you see a boy, and you would impress that guy so that what?; the possibility that he would be attracted to you right?
Well, that's not what i really feel.
Its like when I see guy, i just feel that i'm this nerdy, awkward girl and i'm not good enough for guys like this.
When i feel that, i feel that i'm not good enough for everyone. You get it?

sigh..

I don't think anyone would get me.
Not my parents,
Not my brothers or sisters or whatever,
Not even you.

You could try but i don't think you would be successful,
Cause i really hate pouring out feelings to another person.
But i'm really not pretending.
I just don't to trouble those around me just to comfort me.

Am i good enough? Or am just, strange or weird or whatever?
Am i?