Today was a pretty good day i must say. Except for the three-periods of English!
I love English and all, but almost two hours in the same classroom could drive you nuts!
I had netball after that.

Sigh.

I don't seem to have much close friends in that CCA.
I actually joined it to get to know the other malay girls better. But in the end, it somehow made me feel more alone than ever.
Is there something wrong with me? Or is it that i'm too quiet?
I'm trying my best to speak up, its just that i always seemed to be ignored.
Is it because that i'm no good at the sport?
Or is it that i'm too quiet? Or is it that you just don't like me?
What is it?



Even in class i'm sometimes feeling ignored.
The teachers don't really listen to what i say, my friends don't really seem to bother me anymore.
What's wrong? What's happening?
Am i just over reacting?
Even if i am, they would talk to me once in awhile.

I feel abandoned. Literally.
Even after netball, i thought there'd be someone there, waiting for me.
In the end, she was gone. I was 'abandoned'.
That pushed me to the edge. Right now, i'm falling as we speak.
I don't feel like i have anymore hope. Its gone, totally lost.
I'm sorry, for anything wrong that i've done. I'm sorry.


You can hate me if you want. I can't stop you neither can i do anything.
I'm sorry. I really am.
I can't help it if i'm like this.
I know i'm; stupid, ugly, really weak and totally not atheletic.
I'm sorry if i can't change for any of you.

But i just think that some of you should be sorry too.