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Fated to pretend.
fools on parade, cavort and carry on.

Pushover.
Sunday, May 31, 2009

My godd, i have s splitting headache!
Argh!

I feel like lying on my bed the whole friggin' day!
I don't care if anyone else is more tired than me, but i'm tired.
I know, i know i should have gone for the meeting today, but you can't force me to do something i don't really want to do.
Its like asking a carnivore to eat greens.
Its been too long since i've been pushed or giving way.
I;ve been pushed to the friggin' edge and i'm about to fall.
I don't want to fall!
That's why i'm pushing back.
I'm sorree if i offended you or hurt you in any way.
But,,
Would you like it if i kept asking you to do things that you didn't really want to do?
Honestly, would you?
I know you're angry, but i really didn't want to go to something that wasn't even going to include me.
Don't make me feel guilty by blaming me for something i'm wrong for.

I'm not cut out for conflicts like this.
But please, don't push me anymore.
If i say yes, just appreaciate it.
If i say no, just accept it.
I really don't want to fall off that edge, i don't want to be a pushover anymore!
I don't want to be at the bottom where people can just throw things at me.
I don't want to be sad, pathetic and just following other people's instructions or whatever.

I'm sorreee ouhkae? If you think i 'abandoned' you in someway.

I just didn't want to do it.




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Name's Nabilah. i try to consider myself a weirdo to be different from the rest of you, and i figured i lost my sanity a long time ago. i'm a diferential realist who's enthralled by cynical mayhem. you don't like it? then just beat it.






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