Today is Sunday.
Thank god tomorow is a holiday or else i would be rushing through everything.

Today woke up early in the morning.
Mann, felt like sleeping more actually buuuut; couldn't.
Had to go to the mosque; Masjid Ahmad Ibrahim.
Went to ' tilawathun ' and said, read prayers. Had alot of difficulties.
But there was some entertainment.
Suddenly enjoyed myself. Unsual really,,

Whenever the weekend starts, my teeth start to shiver and my nails are bitten.
I keep worrying about sundays and religous classes.
I'm not saying i hate them or its burden or anything, but its like i have dual personality.
When i'm there, i become this timid, quiet and awkward girl.
I bump into things and somehow humiliate myself.
Aaaaand, since my malay is totally weak and i tend to doze off every now and then,,
I seriously don't understand what they are trying to get through to me.
I mean, i understand abit but not until i could get 70/100.

Sigh.

This year, i seldom go to class like always do every year.
I've been at that school since i was nursery and yet,
Nobody seems to remember or know that i even exist.
Even is they do, i'm not compatible with them. I can't communicate with them.
In the end, i end up as the stupid, loner girl.
I know i'm pathetic.

I wish there was a "cure" for this timid and quietness.
Or a friend there with me.