tears, fears. i guess they're just jitters.

the exam priod's on and i can't handle it. it seems too hard.
i just feel so stupid.
i can't do it. i just can't. i'd fail i do.
i wish i was like some others, or just smart.

can i do it? could i do it?
even if i could, how could i continue it? its too hard!
ugh, what's the matter with me?!
who on earth could help me now,
friends? -.-'
come on.

there are some, but other than that; its just well, phony.
having friends is a challenge. accepting their flaws, its hard. everything's hard to me anyway.
but, there are those who just piss me off and keeps on bullshitting themselves and everyone else.
they're trying to be somehting that's out their friggin' league and they should just face it;
that they're no better than everyone else.

it may not be about who we are or what results we get,
buti still do think that the results do count.
i just don't want to do badly, i'm soooo way behind and i'm trying.
but i'm afraid that my trying just won't do.
or maybe i'm just not doing anything about it.

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to think about it, i still don't know what is my problem.
it should be about exams, but i have a feeling that its just about me.

mann, do i need counselling. -.-'
i need a solution but its either i can't find it, or i'm just not reaching out to it.
serioiusly, what's the matter with me? jeez.