its 'piss-me-off' day i suppose,

AAAH GAWD!
first, they tell me that i have to re-take my effin' english exam.
i have other subjects to study besides these 9 subjects!
aaaawh jeeeeez-
i'm gonna die! die.
but its not like i can do anything, so what can i do? -.-'

and then these effin' people whose mentality is soo effin' strange and obviously has no common sense, comes shouting at people who has done nothing wrong.
you're targetting the WRONG person dude.
and its not the entire e1 who went to report.
do they actually think we want a re-take? NO!
who does anyway?
and what's up with thrashing our classroom? what have we effin' done?
what's effin' wrong with people? WE didn't do anything!
go find the right person, if you even can.

and if they didn't want anybody, or anything to get caught, then they should have just kept their bloody mouths shut aye?
and especially to the 'complainy' person, you should have just shut up.
all this, started with a friggin' sheet of paper and a friggin' wide mouth.
its just effin' ridiculous!


you know what i realized?
people, including myself, have seriously bad planning.
my gawsh,
they told it was the first house, so i effin' stayed home!
and told me that they would be coming around 4.15, so i waited- for an effin' hour!
it became 4.30, it didn't matter. i just waited.
it became 5.00, was beginning to calm down- but i still waited.
turned out, that they went on first without me. it didn't matter that much so i just waited for them at my house.
it became 6.00.
turned out again, they went on- without me.
from then on, i became frggin' pissed.
maybe 6.15, someone calls me- asking if they could still come to my effin' house.
of course not!
there was a friggin' reason why i said my house should have been first,
my family are busy people!- hen mang ren! -.-'
it was in the effin' evening, my parents are out, how the hell am i suppose to invite them in?!

f**k.
i guess i'm just not that important right?
i'm just another dull girl to be put aside to one friggin' corner whereas the rest, who are supposedly 'fun' can go off effin' around.
fine.
its not that i don't care, if i didn't, i wouldn't be typing this down!
i care, i friggin' do.
but i can' tolerate anymore effin' nonsense. this is just as well; ridiculous.


what an effin' year.
it has pissed me off a number of times, that i don't think i have to will to live anymore!
when there's no will, there's no friggin' way. - and nothing to be left behind.


i can't describe how i'm feeling- but i know i just don't want to feel anything anymore.